Do you believe yourself when you tell yourself, “I don’t want to”?
I did.
For a verrryyyy long time. Because I thought I was listening to myself and being kind to myself and honoring myself.
But here’s the sketchy thing with desires … they’re fleeting. It’s like chasing butterflies.
You’ll feel all over the place and ultimately, you don’t really get anywhere.
For me this looked like pushing things off, negotiating with myself, not following my plan, being inconsistent, manipulating circumstances to feel better, accepting my excuses as personal limitations and working weird and wild hours just to say I can only get things done when I do them “my way.”
It’s was also immediately gratifying and then almost as quickly: unsatisfying and unsettling.
Kinda like having ice cream for dinner every night. The dopamine is fun but then it wears off and you have the lasting not-so-positive effects from it.
This is the biggest thing I’m having to (re)learn right now: working with commitment.
It requires a tiny bit more focus and intention and a lot less believing your own bullsh*t.
But not in a force yourself to do it kind of way, in a quietly work through the negative emotions you don’t wanna feel kind of way.
It’s gentle yet grounded. Resolute and determined.
& you’ll have a consistent and dependable body of work to show for it.
10/10 recommend digging in and learning how – you’ll feel real proud of yourself at the end of the day and at the end of the week 🤍 Happy almost Turkey Day y’all!